I'm gonna miss that 3am call

I know it sounds crazy, but I'm realizing that I actually kinda like that middle-of-the-night feeding, and will miss it one day when it's gone. Now, it helps that D's gone from 2-3 wake ups to only once lately. That's been really really nice. It also helps that he's never been one to want to be awake much at night-- he'll eat and be back to sleep within half an hour at most. And sure, it'd be nice to get 8-9 hours of uninterrupted sleep at night... But I'm not sure I'm in much of a hurry to get rid of that last nighttime feeding.

The thing is, it feels really nice to nurse him to sleep. It's a satisfying feeling, and he looks so sweet nursing with his eyes closed. And then when he's done and he pulls away, still asleep, well I think that's my favorite moment of all, a look I wish I could capture with a camera but will have to settle with engraving it to memory. He'll have his jaw kinda clenched, bottom lip sticking out a bit in almost a pout, all of this making his cheeks and double chin puff out to their most round. Then his face relaxes, and his mouth will sometimes gape open just a little, and he looks just so adorable, peaceful, hilarious, and sweet, all at once.

I've been working on establishing predictable routines for nap and bedtime, and haven't incorporated nursing into them partially b/c I don't want to have to be the only one to ever put him down to sleep. And so, one of the only times when I get to nurse him to sleep is when he wakes at 3am. It's one very nice reward for stumbling down the stairs in a sleepy haze in those wee hours of the morning.